1.11.2016

Ethan

Dear Ethan,

You are finally 4!

We met exactly (pretend I'm finishing this post on Jan 11th) four years ago. After a long day I got to finally reach out and touch your sweet face. You looked at me as if saying Hi Mama!

Those first few days I spent all of my free time watching your every move. Your smile and tiny fingers and sweet, sweet cuddles. It was all magical. It's still magical to watch you grow and be.

There wasn't a ton of sleep those first few months (really year). But not to worry - Daddy would come home from teaching and rescue us from the mess of the day. The next day Mama would try again.

Then you turned 1 and the words have not stopped since. I love ALL of your words. You're a boy full of passion and a big heart. 

You love BIG! 
You care for your family BIG!
You love on your baby brother BIG! 

Your passion flows into everything you do and I absoultely love it!



A few stories from your year .....

The other day you came home from Preschool with a picture of Jesus on the cross. You said you shared your picture story with your friends. My heart burst in a million pieces with love. I love that Jesus is in your heart and is part of your life so naturally. In the those first days after meeting you I remember asking God to help me teach you about Him. I didn't know how I was going to do it but I knew that I wanted you to know Jesus like your Daddy and only He would be able to help me do that. I wanted you to know to turn to Jesus first with all of the life things. And somehow it is happening. Well not somehow ... God is showing you and I am in complete awe and honored to be a witness.


You've told me that you want to be a fireman when you grow up. The other day you said, "Mommy, when I grow up you won't be my mommy anymore because I'll live at the firestation.". 


You started calling your Grandpa "Your Dad" when you found out he was my daddy. And you call PaPa Daddy's Dad. (cutest thing)


Waco. Last summer we took a road trip to Waco to meet some of Daddy's solider friends. It wasn't your first hotel stay but it was the first stay you have in your memory. On one of the days you and Daddy swam in their pool while me and 2-month-old Mason stayed in the room. On our last day you got to watch a snippet of the Harry Potter movie and you thought the kids flying on brooms were so cool. Ever since you have been asking us to take you back to Waco. The big pool, elevator rides, and Harry Potter movie all mean Waco to you.


Christmas 2014 was Mason's first Christmas but really it was your first Christmas. You were completely into all things Christmas. The decorating and stockings and Santa movies and playing with your nativity scene and telling the story of Jesus and singing Hark the Harold!. We made and set out cookies for Santa. We had a countdown and you were oh so excited!!! On Christmas morning you were so excited to open presents. You opened one and then stopped all of a sudden. You reached for the present you had made me at school and asked me to open it. Your thoughtfulness and love for others shows through your every move. It was a ceramic tile with a picture of me with grass and clouds. You said it was for me to have in case I missed you. Sweet boy. 


The day after Christmas you were so sad. You told me, "Mama I'm sad that Christmas left."


Our best conversations are at bedtime in your room or in the mornings while getting ready. One night you said that you had prayed for me on the stairs. I love that. 



Daddy and I talk about what a cool dude you are. God has poured so much love into you and I am so in love with HIs creation. He made you prefect for our family. Thank you for sharing your love and heart with us every day.


Happy Birthday Ethan Bear!

Love,
Mama




10.16.2015

More Irish Boy Stories

I started this post a few months back. It's good to be back in the rhythm of writing down words to all of the thoughts. I want the boys to have some memories to look back on and get a glimpse of what their childhood was like. Because let's be honest - those scrapbooks will probably get done when I retire. 

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Life is finally starting to feel a little bit normal. Or rather like the version of our new normal. We are settling into the new rhythym of raising two littles and sharing our time between all four of us. It's not completely balanced yet but we are getting there. 

Ethan is a great big brother! His personality really shines through as he gets to know and love on his little brother. The other day I was in the bathroom doing Mason's bathtime. I said to Mason that I was going to need diaper cream when we got to pajama time. Ethan was playing out in the hallway waiting for his turn. A few minutes later Ethan walks in and hands me the diaper cream. "Here you go Mommy." SWEET BOY! He does this often. Just offers up his help or shares his great idea. He has lots of ideas on how to keep his brother safe and happy.

One night we were saying our prayers before bed. I close my eyes and wait for him to pray. Silence. I open my eyes and ask if he wants me to pray this time. He says, "No, remember? At night we pray in our heads because ..." And he points to Mason's room. "Mason is asleep." Of course in true 3 year-old fashion a few minutes later he is back to talking in a regular voice.

We were gifted the Fancy Nancy book and Ethan absolutely loves it. One night we read it on the couch and then settled in to watch some Duck Dynasty... Otherwise known as Ducks at our house. Ethan and I were sharing a Sonic drink (because we love to be healthy on the weekends) and made a pretend picnic on the couch. This was really my attempt at keeping any potential spills from our couch. We decided to invite Daddy to join us and Ethan turns to him and says, "Want to join us on the couch Darling?" with his pinky in the air and all. Just like Fancy Nancy - it was so cute!

I love that he's getting the humor thing.  He loves that he can make us laugh. 

At five months Mason is practicing rolling over. He also loves to empty any and all bins. All of the toys come out and then the bin becomes a drum. He loves to smile and is an overall happy kid. I've missed some ear infections because of this. He has two levels: Happy and Less Happy. And especially loves everything Big Brother is doing. No one else makes him laugh and smile like Ethan does.

Mason always has a story to tell. During our morning drive he shares lots of thoughts. During bathtime he has lots of stories. Ethan is a non-stop talker too. Which works just fine for this talking-lovin' mama. The one who gets the short end of the stick is Travis. Normally he is a guy of a few words at home. Now he has to fight three of us for air time if he has something to say. And after the boys are in bed he becomes my word catcher. I love my little Ethan bear but there are days where I listen more than talk. Mason's stories only require a smile. Ethan's stories require listening and egangement. And this girl has to get all of her words out to keep the grumpies away.

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Life is just humming along to its new rythym at the Irish house. I know I say it all of the time but I really wouldn't trade it for the world. Even the days when I want to clock out at 9am. Becuase even on those days my three boys share their happy.


8.10.2015

Life of 4

I wrote this three months ago before all of the illnesses from 2015 decided to settle over our home. It was the craziest. Then again it fell right in line with our crazy year...


It's been five months since we became a family of four. It has been an adventure. I am still very much in the transition phase. 

It's so odd to me that I had already forgotten what the newborn stage was like. I remembered the giggles and the smiles and the tiny clothes. But I had forgotten the sweet cuddles of a just fed baby. The midnight wake up calls where I'm grumpy for more sleep and excited to spend alone time with Mason ... All at the same time. Which brings me to 

all. of. the. emotions. 

The happy euphoria of meeting that sweet baby. 
Watching Ethan fall in love with the baby brother he has been waiting for so patiently.
Seeing Mason light up when he sees his Daddy.
Figuring out how to make sense of the new happy crazy.
The house being forever messy with pirates, swords and baby gear. 

It's a new world and we are loving it. 


Mason is now 8 months old and life has settled into this new rhythm of fast. I can't tell if I am out of the transition phase or if I just surrendered so that it feels normal. When we are not feeding and changing the little, we are entertaining and feeding the big. Somewhere in between we squeeze in regular life.

Ethan has easily stepped into the protector big brother role. The other day we were home recovering from the "four-year-old check-up with the three shots" and Ethan wanted us to go pick up Mason from school. I don't want Mason to be there all day Mama he says. His thoughtfulness and love is deep for his little.

Mason is the little that yells "I'm right here!". During the bumbo stage we had to put him on the table while we ate dinner. Otherwise he would yell and yell as if saying "I'm in this family too y'all!" It's the same story now that he is graduated to the high chair. We are eating dinner so he wants dinner. Never mind that he just had his bottle plus baby food. He is showing signs of loving all things food. The boy fits right in around here.

This new world just keeps getting better with each passing month. It's full of all of the laundry, never ending bottle washing, toys scattered about, giggles and lots of love. The best is when the brothers see each other for the first time in the mornings. The biggest smiles ever! And the love ... All of the love between them ... It makes this mama's heart fuller than full! 




7.28.2015

Hi Y'all! Mason here. Mama has been a bit busy with me and Brother so I thought I would jump in to say hi. 

Hi!


My first few months home have been super fantastic! (My brother taught me to say that). I'm 11 weeks old now. I'm getting the hang of this breathing and eating thing. My favorite part so far is sleeping. Mama was so excited this morning because I slept from 9pm to 5am. I was just really tired from my first road trip. I don't think it will happen again - I like seeing her and Daddy in the middle of the night.


But my most favorite part of my new house is my big brother!  He is so funny! He holds my hand. And plays with my hair. And watches the best shows on this iPad thing. Maybe when I learn how to hold my head up Mama and Daddy will get me one. I am practicing every day. Mama and Daddy say I'm doing really good. Brother says I just have to keep trying.


I love my new house! Mama and Daddy have a bottle waiting for me almost every time I wake up from my naps. It's like they are magic!! My brother likes to share all of his old baby toys with me. And my bed is so comfy.



Oh and guess what?! 


My brother is a pirate!!!

He knows how to talk like a pirate and has a sword and everything! He said he's going to teach me how to be a pirate one day.

Here are some fun pictures Mama took. She is always asking me to say cheese but I don't know how to use my words yet. I try my best to smile.

2 months old

me and my favorite brother

After my first road trip


Well, I must get back to my napping now. Have a good day!


6.11.2015

Mason's Birth Story

The last week of bed rest at home was humming along. Just one more weekend, a long Monday, and then it would be Tuesday --- when we would finally get to meet our Mason.

God had a different plan.

It was 2am on Friday morning and the contractions were pretty close together. Not uncommon for me.  My doctor had said to head into Labor & Delivery if the contractions were close and painful. I kept tracking them. They were close but zero pain. The more I tracked the more I stressed. I didn't want to wake up my boys if it was false labor. After a few more minutes of stressing I remembered to pray: Lord please be really loud if it is time to meet Mason. 

I laid there and next thing I know Travis' alarm is going off. I fell asleep! Thank you Lord. 

I tell Travis what happened and he was loving and didn't say a word but I could tell he thought I should have woke him. 

Ethan and Travis go through their morning routine and I get ready for my last prenatal appointment. The doctor had given me the okay to drive and be on my feet a little bit more since we were so close to our scheduled delivery date. Ironically it was harder than ever to walk. In the last week my belly had dropped making it hard to do just about anything. 

I took the scenic route into the office that morning and stayed off the highway just in case. As I'm driving the contractions return. Like clockwork they are 10 minutes apart. This time there is some discomfort. I'm still trying to find other reasons than the beginning of labor. I think maybe it's because I'm sitting instead of laying down. Silly me. 
  
I walk into the office and the receptionist asks how I'm doing. I say I'm not sure and proceed to tell her about all of the fun. She asked me to have a seat but that Dr E might send me to Labor & Delivery to get monitored. I hadn't even sat down comfortably when she peaked out the door and told me to go ahead and head across the street. 

Could today be the day?!

Dr E rushed out and met me in the hallway and said "If the contractions continue or get closer we'll go ahead and deliver today. We're close enough at 37 weeks and 6 days; Mason will be fine. Then again you may get there and your body may relax. Let's just check."

I walked to my car stunned. Shell-shocked really. And a little nervous. I had a scheduled C-Section. This was not the plan. Then my friend reminded me that this was exciting. I soon could be meeting this little boy I had been working so hard to protect she said. I finally exhaled and remembered that it could be the most exciting day. I find it loving how God sends you a hug and a wink when you need it most.

I give Travis a heads up and drive myself across the street to the hospital. I get buzzed in and have to walk down a long hallway to the check-in desk. It's sweet though that I wasn't really alone. A new dad walked through the door with me and we chatted a bit until we got to his wife's room. I was walking really slowly. Then a nurse carrying someones food tray walked and talked with me the rest of the way. 

When I got to Labor & Delivery to get monitored I was assigned a nurse I knew well.  Again, a comforting reminder that I wasn't alone. I laid there and read for the next hour thankful I could let the machine do the contraction tracking. At the end of the hour she came in and said "Today is the day! The contractions have stayed 7 to 10 minutes apart and the last one was closer at 2 minutes. Go ahead and call your husband." 

And so our waiting game began. 

It was closer to noon now. We were told we would be slotted for the OR at 1:30pm. In reality it was closer to 4:00pm when they wheeled us to the OR. 

Mason was born at 4:31pm.

6 lbs 9 oz
19 inches long

Mason Allen Irish



Sweet boy had a hard birth. It turned out he was breached and it took the doctor 4 minutes to pull him out. Thankfully he was never out of oxygen. The little guy was bruised from all of the pulling. I guess my body was not ready to let go.

I heard his brief cry and got to briefly kiss him before they rushed him to NICU. I wasn't surprised since he was two weeks early. I expected him to spend at least a few hours in the NICU. Later I learned that he was having a hard time keeping his lungs open on his own. The NICU team quickly went to work and got him on a water bubble to help relieve the stress. His little body needed a little time to get used to his new world. 

The long delivery time led to a longer than expected surgery time. The long surgery time led to a lot of blood loss. Thankfully I had gone into surgery with a high blood count. I believe the rest and water drinking had primed my body for this twist in our adventure. I spent a couple of hours in recovery. Again I was not alone.

I was assigned a nurse that had helped me monitor late night contractions many times during my hospital stay. At one point I remember telling her "I love that I know you guys". She said "I love that you know us too". She was full of good advice for my recovery and shared how Mason was doing.

Once I was ready they wheeled my bed into the NICU so I could see my boy. It was hard seeing him with all of his medical gear but I was glad I could at least lay my hand on him. He was now stable and doing very well considering. My sweet nurse stayed there with me for a whole hour. 

The next time I saw my boy was the next night. Saturday was rough. The blood loss caught up with my body. The doctor on call finally gave the green light for a blood transfusion late that afternoon. At the same time that they were prepping me, three loving friends came to love on us and pray with us. It was perfect timing. The visit soothed and calmed my soul. 

By Sunday Mason was off of the water bubble and breathing on his own. His IV was gone too. All that was left of his medical gear where the vital sign monitors. Travis and I took turns visiting him during feedings. It was great to finally hold him and love on him. My sweet strong boy.

On Monday Mason developed a bit of jaundice. They placed him under the blue lights. This made him very sleepy and he hardly ate that day. That's hard to believe now because the boy cannot go one minute past his feeding time without screaming at the top of his lungs.

Later that day I was medically released from the hospital but Mason had to stay. The team quickly found an empty room for us to be together and room-in overnight. The goal was to send us home together. We had one more night under the blue lights. The team wanted to see an improvement in his jaundice levels and his feeding to be consistent before they allowed him to go home. It felt like I had one shot. I was nervous. Travis had to be home with Ethan so I called on My Laura and she gladly and quickly rushed to be with us. [Small side note: My Laura is my dad's wife but step mom is just such a yucky term to me -- thanks Cinderella -- so I call her My Laura] I was so thankful that she dropped everything to be with me. It gave me the Mom Confidence I needed to take care of Mason and get us home.

The night was spent waking to alarms set to every 3 hours and keeping Mason awake long enough to feed. By morning the "Smurf Test" showed his jaundice levels had improved and his feedings were consistently good. All that was left was for the doctor to review everything and hopefully grant his release.

By late morning Travis, Mason and I were headed home. We were finally on our way to beginning our family of four journey at home. Praise the Lord.

Being removed from his birth by several weeks I can see God's hand in every step. He prepared us for our bed rest adventure. I thought that was our whole story. It wasn't. The bed rest prepared us for Mason's birth. Bed rest grew our family's faith. It gave my body the best fighting chance for such a crazy delivery. It helped Travis and I appreciate and grow in our roles of Mommy, Daddy, Husband, and Wife. Our friends and family showered us with constant love and prayers. All of this helped us to endure the rough birth hospital days and the weeks that followed.  Not to mention the many lessons I learned and that I'm still discovering. In the storm I can see many, many blessings.

Mason's story is a great testimony to God's constant faithfulness. His love. His protection.

We have all heard the saying "God doesn't give you more than what you can handle." I have always believed that to be true. Now I know why it is so true --- because He prepares you and leads you through it all  --- if you let Him. All you need is to do is to keep your eyes on Jesus.

Ethan (3 years)   Mason (4 days)