I Found It!

There is this tiny sliver of paradise tucked away at the end of each day called sunset. It is by far my favorite part of the day. When I was on bed rest with Mason and the doctor gave me the okay to leave the house for short trips that involved sitting, Travis would roll me into the car and we would drive until the sun went down. The bumps were hard on the ever sensitive belly but the fresh air and the beautiful colors in the sky made it all worthwhile.

At the end of the day everything is settled. No more hours to do things. Only calm and peace await.

So here is the thing, as much as I love this little tiny gift we are given each day, I don't get to stop and enjoy it very often. The bedtime routines tend to steal all of the end of day minutes. They steal the morning minutes too but that's another story. Right now...in the middle of June... the sun goes down after the bedtime dances are done. So the boys get placed in bed and I try to quietly run into my bedroom to enjoy this ....

I get to sit here in the quiet and watch. Or read. Or write. Or journal. Or learn. Until ...

the Littles happen....

And they scream out for...

One more drink. Or to try and convince me that they cannot possibly spend the night in their bed. Or to ask if I was going to check on them. Or bad dreams.

Sigh, at least I get the chance of a sunset view each day. And I remind myself that they will not always be little or need their mommy at this time of day.

The pretty colors are helping me in my journey to try and find my stillness. I've been doing a lot over the last few months. I haven't really dwelled in being. I've been going constantly with newborn stuff and family transitioning to a family of four stuff and illness stuff and new role at work stuff and it had all just been so busy. But y'all most of those are settled now and we are entering a new season at the Irish house. We have entered the season where everyone eats three meals a day. And it's time. It's time to quiet down and find the margins to be still. Or rather create the margins to be still. It's hard though because I want to fill the margins with all of the fun stuff I haven't gotten to do because of the busy. I want to read all of the books written by my bloggy friends. I want to hear all of the podcasts. I want to do all of the bible study books. I want to scrapbook all of the pictures. I want to learn this photography thing once and for all. I want to pour into my boys ... all three of them. But before all of that I need to let Jesus pour His love into me. But He has to catch me first. Or rather I have to let myself be caught. And that takes me back to being still. This little sliver of paradise is the perfect place to start practicing.

"Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10